I wrote this as a journal piece around the same time that I wrote Time Makes Things Different. They are companion pieces.
I used to say, “Cancer? Bring it on.” Not because I wanted to go to war with the disease that took Ken’s life, but because joy was so elusive and I was not used to living my life without joy. It felt like joining him would be easier, and I longed for him…his scent, his touch, his mind, his wit.
I don’t know what has happened in the five years and two months – almost to the day – since Ken died. Joy has returned. Stamina has returned. My life’s energy has returned.
It feels sudden, but I know better.
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